To give you more news about me and my proceedings, I post this winner:in to read. winner:in means a. that I was a winner already many times in my life, b. the word form relates to strict gender rules and the new signing with ratio in Vienna, AUT. I make fun about it, because public discussion about the ways to express gender, changes permanently and can be denoted as fluid.
Aspire to inspire before we expire
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I was searching a kind of manager for all my life. When I was small, I cared for my daddy’s managment, because he was looking for one, too. Male or female. We went through the city, spoke to people in the cafes and at theaters, but only Jazz people were interested to book Otti. Daddy played from hearing, interpreted so, and won in 1964. He was a genious on the trumpet, later in his life he studied the note system. Managers, we couldn’t wait for, until today I have to make calls, contracts, gigs, dress, show choreography and shopping myself. According to Otti’s virtuousity, I attempted to train everything I wanted to grow up to be the best, too.
IQ Itself
Friends from the Americas once said, that I would have grown up like in a ghetto. To be born with extraordinary intelligence is hard. Especially in Austria, people have problems with me, when I find out things or can tell about how many human beings they speak about in their little stories. They began to hate me for my “internal” knowledge and chased me away, because I realized details of their being or action, they would have never thought of. IQ not only helps to understaand structures very fast, it drives human beings to shout me away and out of their lives. No fun, they donˋt respect it and sometimes call me bad things.On the other hand, many showed me respect, and all problems in life, I recently found out, focused on money until nowadys. I asked myself, why I should perpetually learn new things, when I wouldn’t receive money for doing so. The Austrian republic didn’t support me in additional educative measures, until I was eighteen, I suffered from it. Parents and family refused to finance more than high school. At University, the were more or less ignorant about my IQ. Currently, I have to live from social donations, because more than ten years, they couldn’t find me any occupation relating to my capabilities. I always tried to be active, and searching paid work, but these days I thought, maybe I am too different in Vienna, Austria. My private property was destroyed ten years ago, again money was too small. I worked so much for my private life, that I will have to undergo this hip operation next year. In 2019, my belly operation went very good and controls proof. Oh, and I forgot, that I was persecuted by islamist terrorist since the 1990ies. And – three relationships in the past make me stay at home exclusively.
Sports
Swimming and being one of the fastest in sports saved my life! It’s a fact, that I swam so fast, that all were behind me. I learned to swim in Alte Donau. Luckily, I was training in Stadthalle, regularly. I trained my muscles “dry”, too. So I survived a shark attack in the Adria, Mediterrainian Sea. With a small yacht, some eight people, me, and an old uncle, went on sea with a captain experienced in this area and fishing there. Approximately an hour against Balkan coasts, I jumped into the water. What I didn’t know was, that a thunderstorm, already moving the sea, came nearer and nearer. The sea carried me away from the boat some 100 meters. I was desparate in water, because the things I jumped in, moved. I swam up, looked around, saw the yacht in approximately one hundred meters distance, and on the left, some twenty meters distance, a shark coming out of thee water, hunting me. I screamed as loud as I could into the water to destroy orientation for the shark sensory system. I felt incredible, in danger, my last minutes, alone, and screaming into the sea, beating on water with my hands. I was swimming for my life, in big waves, as fast as ever an eleven and a half year youngster could ever swim. I won my fight – I climbed up the stairs, then I saw how the people were crying. The shark crashed into the yacht, like a some hundred kilo something. No hole, but thunderstorm and back to the beach. Luck, applied intelligence, knowledge, and complete self-control given by God saved my life. It was one of the most difficult temptations in my life. Never give up fighting for your life!
Applied Arts / Painting
When I was twelve, I won. I won the applied arts contest for European alumni in high school. I was twelve, and they messaged, that my ideas and painting was the most beautiful concept to make a park or garden. The drawing is visible as lead foto. I was painting and drawing very much, maybe I start again. I got to take my time, but find no patience for it. Music is more important to me.
The Method In The Hollywood Dare
I used to answer on how I decided to leave Europe for Hollywood, that I found it on Google. Tit for tat, my method acting teacher Edgar Fell told me, I was the best in acting until the moment, then. So I left Vienna, AUT, and found the famous and cheap La Brea to stay for the first days. It was all I knew from 1990ies travel to Laguna Beach, California. I walked through the city, but I cannot find any photos anymore. I used the busses and subway, I enjoyed feeling the huge cityscape, which was and is immensely big. I loved to be there, because I learned many things: I had to buy water to drink, which in Central Europe is not necessary, I heard. I have t admit, I never found the big Hollywood letters in the hills, all laughed about it. I remember the fog incidence, I survived good. Sometimes, I still feel this fog blinding tunnel, but the form of trauma is getting better. I loved to be at the beach, I walked around in Beverly Hills – well, not long – they warned me of wild dogs. I love to walk around downtown in Jewel District, Toy district and near the big hotels. Somewhere I found an old warehouse, some pop – ups of the sun going down, taking the bus, seeing this black dressed man in the car passing by, … I will never forget. I was running, because some aggressive people chased me away. Fleeing to the bus, I suddenly regretted to have left the people alone. Some weeks after all those revolution fires in L. A. Ghetto, Prince arrived in Hollywood Boulevard, driving through Holllywood, calming down the Black People. “Are you making music?”, he asked me. I answered,”I learned classical guitar, but currently, I am there for acting and Hollywood. He told me, that he would have to go to rehearsal, but maybe later he would come and we would go out. This is a custom in Hollywood, and my prayers, that “it” would happen didn’t help. – I was – and I am – so happy to be a witness of making peace in L. A. They said most of the tourists would prefer Frisco, but I like L. A.
U Science
Social and Cultural Anthropology was a chance to proceed the academic studies. In Austria, they told me, that even my honorary doctorate from the U.S.A. given by Ray Kurzweil, wouldn’t interest them. Until today, I had no financial support to attend the honors.
KlangVent: Sybil.Muzak Beatzphere Club
Happily, I won #KLANGVENT in 2018. I feel, that this helped me out of much trouble, and it produced lots of hope in me. I know, that I am very talented, I learned how to play the Classical Guitar for eight years. And, the way I composed the music video was so: The Klangfarbe stuff wanted 24 seconds, X-Mas, music video. I thought, everybody would send in takes from performances or theater. So, I decided to compose a unit of 24 seconds with music painting pictures and vice versa. With unit I mean a form of one thing, one musicvideo being in itself. I searched all my archives to find correlating video pieces and sound. Baby Jesus and gold foil for celebration, me as singer and actress in the middle praising, I felt was good enough for Vienna, AUT.
I thought, I could spread little hope for future. Maybe readers would be motivated and wouldn’t give up their idea and concept endeavours. There happened many more events in my life, like at #FridaysForFuture police threats at protests. Dear friends were beaten by brutal uniformed guys. My daddy’s problems. My problems. My partners’ problems. Don’t worry, be happy. Or, Peace Is Not The Absence Of War. Or, Keep on Running. Or, Tomorrow Another Day. Or, Smile Direct Club. Anything, which makes you feel better, use it in times of pandemia and climate emergency.
God helps the Good
- Starmania – The Big Chance
- Sybil, Method Actor: A Character For A Day
- Music Certificates 2022/2023
- Sybil’s Mission Statement
- Art of Composing
- Songwriting 2023
- Amadeus Music Award 2023
- EarthWorm
- feschprivat + wayward
- Sybil.Muzak Beatzphere Club
